I know that I don't need to make the crossing solo to prove to myself or anyone else that I can do it. I know that I am recovered from my eating disorder and can continue to gain and maintain my weight and not stress over it. I can live my life without having to be exercising every day. I have also come to find new loves in my life that now take a new priority. I have new dreams and goals that I am now working towards.
It has been a tough decision to make about not attempting another solo crossing, but I can happily say that I will be doing a duo with my awesome training partner.We will have our amazing support crew just like this year and we will be training hard like we did last year, just this time I have put a little more focus on other things in my life and not just being totally obsessed with swimming and making sure I am getting faster with every training session.
I know in my heart of hearts that I will one day try a solo crossing again, but for know I am happy to do it as a duo, and also to focus on my love for writing, and reading. Writing is my new journey and you know what its perfectly ok to make changes along the way of your life's journey and to me that is what the experiences in life are for, and the lessons that come with the experiences as well.
So there I am. New pathway, a slight change in a previous goal, and so much to look forward to.
Have an awesome week to come and enjoy the experiences you have every day xx
Hayley
