This time when I was given the book, I started to read, and with in the first couple of pages I knew I needed to get my own copy to keep, and gave the borrowed copies back. I have looked back over the last couple of years as I feel things started to change for me and just how much has changed and how it has.
I knew I needed help to gain weight, I saw the need to make some changes for my health. I was searching for a dietitian and found one that was a specialist in eating disorders, but I didn't even know that before I saw her. I was shown by the universe just what it was that triggered my bad eating habits and gave power to the eating disorder. I have seen so many different things happen in my life over the last while that the universe has put on my path. It doesn't matter if my thoughts have been conscious or unconscious things have been put there to make my life better.
I now make sure I have time to be grateful for things and people in my life, and have time to think of things that are important and that I need. I notice I don't like being around negatives or negative people. I have always been someone who takes on others feelings especially negative ones. I have learnt to put myself into an invisible bubble to protect myself from the negatives as much as possible.
I have also learnt that things happen for a reason. The Universe has ways of showing us certain things that we need to see and do. At the time we might not understand why we are shown these things or have things put in our lives, but later when we look back we can stand there and say..."now I understand".
I have started using my thoughts more productively and seeing the benefits from it, though the feeling of needing to be in control has been the most difficult to let go of. We just need to focus on what we need, want or wish for and the Universe will provide when the time is right. For me as I have always been focused on having control over so many aspects of my life, its like my lesson is to learn to let things happen and that they happen for a reason. Books are given to us for reasons, people come into our lives for many different reasons, we go through illnesses for reasons, we might not like those reasons at the time, but we learn from the hard things in our lives and the easy things as well, just sometimes we need the bigger kick up the butt for it.
Have a great week, and be aware of your thoughts and what happens around you.
Hayley xx
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