Some Times You Learn

This past week has been a big eye opener for me. I have had to learn that even though I didn't make it to the finish line last weekend, I made it to the 15.5 kilometer mark and that is 5.5 kilometers further than I have ever swum before and its a bloody long way. I also had to understand that as much as I was disappointed in not making it to the finish line, I gained approximately 15 kilograms while training, working full time and going about my "normal" life. I also have put my eating disorder into the past, and know that I don't have any connection with it any more. Its not who I am now!

I had one of my customers come into work and ask how the swim went. When I explained that I didn't make it to the finish and why I didn't, and also explained what I had to get through to where I was at the start line last weekend. His comment as he was leaving was, "you are a hero to me!" Now for me that was very overwhelming to hear. I have never had someone say that to me before. I felt humbled by his words and a little uneasy as well, as I didn't think about what had happened in that sense. I guess by not finishing I managed to learn more about myself and my capabilities, but also where things can change, and ways I might be able to help others.

Learning that I am more than physically strong and mentally strong has been an eye opener as well, I never saw myself as an emotionally strong person, Now I can say, yes I am, I am confident that I can deal with issues in the healthiest way now and not sabotage myself back into bad unhealthy habits.

Now I prepare for foot surgery on Wednesday, and then at least six weeks out of the water. Which will allow me time to organise some awesome training sessions, gain some more weight, relax and get some well needed time for writing done. Then once I get the go ahead its back into the water and training ready for Rottnest Channel Swim 2017.

Have an awesome weekend everyone, and even when something doesn't quite go to plan you will always see that there is a positive and a lesson to learn.

Hayley xx