That stuck feeling...

That moment when you feel like your world is collapsing around you. Its been one of those weeks, I was right on the edge of an eating disorder relapse, which for me is not good. I got to a point on Friday while swimming and asked myself, why am I doing this? I had hit frustrations with people around me and feeling like I was drifting further and further into an area I didn't want to go back to.

I managed to catch myself in time through different situations in the last couple of days, to see that I was starting to spiral. So what happens from here. I take this week and take a step back and reassess my reasons for swimming, my health, my mind set, and then get myself back on track.

I have been given by the Universe a kick in the butt to say, "hey slow down, lets clear the mind and reset." This is something in the past I wouldn't have done, I would have just kept going, bottled all my emotions up and not put any thought to sorting them out.

So where to from here, keeping positive thoughts and taking some time away from the pool, and get some work done in the gym, and de-stress the muscles that get used so much in the pool. Spending time listening to my music, which is always a great way for me to clear my mind, and to think things through. Spend some needed time working on my book, and study.

Even the most positive people need to cocoon themselves and reset their minds and goals, and then spread their butterfly wings to reach new, and old goals and move forward.

Have an awesome week everyone...

Hayley xx