How do we observe ourselves and reflect? I can watch myself some days when I am in a crappy mood and some days, like today it feels almost like an outer body experience. It is strange, and unnerving as well. I can stand there and be arguing with someone and feel and see myself doing it.
Its days like this that I don't like at all. I have always been the kind of person that really doesn't like arguing, but believe me I can argue with the best of them, but still don't like the feelings that it brings. I have dreams that I aspire to, and its days like today that I wish the journey would pass quicker than others. This is not just my dreams for my swimming, but for my life as well, on different levels.
I guess today was one of those ones where you just want the world to stop and for you to get off the roller-coaster, but it never happens, you just find a way of dealing with the built us emotions, whether that is arguing with people, to vent frustrations, bottling it up and using exercise or other forms to deal with it all, going to a place that you can be to think things through and reflect and workout ways to best deal with your emotions.
Have a great weekend...
Hayley xx
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