Taking on new studies...

Today is the start of a new chapter in my life. I finally enrolled into my online Personal Training course today, with excitement I await for my course documents to be emailed to me and to start learning everything there is to personal training, and the areas I want to really delve into is one-on-one strength session (weight loss included), helping girls exercise in a healthy way if they have had an eating disorder before, and to learn that having muscle and being strong is an amazing thing. Also strength training for endurance sports.

This course is something I have wanted to do for a long time, but I wanted to make sure I was doing it for the right reasons, and as I am on the better side of recovery from my eating disorder, its time to bring this dream to fruition. I would also like to take on a nutrition course later to add to my personal training, so I can see the next 12-18 months being very busy for me, but all in the most positive way.

 For me the last couple of days have been tough, mainly mentally, as I try to keep a positive attitude as much as I possibly can, there have been moments and a few more than there should be to, tears, frustration and anger. I have been asked on more than one occasion of why I feel like I do? Initially I didn't know, or really didn't want to say, until last night sitting in a "cool room" at work sobbing and realizing that I haven't been eating properly and that the voice of my eating disorder trying to get the better of me.

So today I managed to get my head above the darkness of the game with help from a close friend and deal with the emotions running through me and making sure today when I could feel my energy levels dropping and the tiredness kicking in, was to have a chocolate milk with sustagen in it for an great healthy energy boost. So for the first time in three days I have managed to keep an even temper and feel good and positive all day.

So as I step into a world of studying, working and training, I look forward to the new things I learn, trying to keep a good balance in my life and really enjoying this time.

I look forward to sharing this experience with you all as well.

Have a great Friday and weekend...

Hayley xx